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I offer free 30 minute telephone/Skype consultations for people wanting to find out more about coaching on the 'baby decision'. Email me at mailto:beth@ticktockcoaching.co.uk and assistant Laura will respond and arrange an appointment with you. Visit http://www.ticktockcoaching.co.uk/ for more information about my coaching services.

Tuesday, 11 December 2018

How I decided to be a mother


I’m often asked how I made the decision to have children.  While I’ve often talked about how my indecision often lead me to coach women on the decision to have children or not, I haven’t often talked about how I made the decision myself.

I was never someone who grown up seeing myself as having children someday.  I had been a shy and awkward child and teenager and while I always had friends, I never had a boy or girlfriend. I think that I found it difficult to imagine myself in a romantic relationship and being a mother. In university, I started to address some of my issues and began to … finally … feel at home in my own skin.  I had a couple of non-serious relationships before meeting my current partner of 19 years when I was 29 years old.

There is a significant age gap between us and he already had a 18 year old son.  Soon after we started the relationship, he said although he wasn’t keen on having children, he would revise this decision if I really wanted children.  ‘Oh no.’ I said.  ‘I definitely don’t want children.’ That was true for me at the time. 

Time went on and, after a few years past,  I spent a week vacation with my cousin and his three children.  It was chaos but fun and something in me was triggered.  ‘Actually’ I thought ‘having children might not be so bad and maybe, I might want to be a Mom’

I was completely shocked by this.  For months, I kept this to myself, not sure if it was a fleeting desire or something more solid.  Finally, I brought it to my partner, who understandably was not thrilled.  For the next year, we discussed the issues with my partner putting all the arguments against having children but my feelings about having a child grew stronger and stronger.

As this was in the day before Google (it’s hard to imagine!) I turned to bookstores and libraries for help but nothing seemed relevant to me.  All the resources were polarised – either aimed at mother or those that were trying to get pregnant.  OR, there were books aimed at the determined childfree.  Nothing seemed to be relevant to me or someone in my situation who was just unsure.

I knew that there were many practical reasons to not have children which included:
  •         Losing my freedom
  •          Being tired all the time
  •          Having less money
  •          Feeling that I might be overwhelmed with responsibilities

Yet, I felt that I couldn’t ignore this tugging string of desire.   I felt stuck between the rational beliefs of myself and the rational desire of my partner to not have a child VS this strange and unexplainable desire.  I knew and felt that I would be fine if I didn’t have a child – I knew that I would have a full life without children but I kept finding my emotions returning again and again to thoughts of having children.

So how did I escape from this trap to DECIDE that I did want children after all?

I decided I needed to make the leap and, as corny as this might sound, listen to my heart. I decided that as much as I had worries and doubts, my emotions were becoming so strong that I needed to listen to those feelings and desires above all.    As soon as I made the decision and put my case to my partner, he came on board and supported my decision and agreed to have a child with me.    After a couple of years of trying, we had our son.

I’m happy with my decision and haven’t looked back.  But equally, I strongly believe that if I had decided not to have children or if I couldn’t have had children, I would have been fine.  I would have led an equality fulfilled life but it would have been different.   

Key to my being able to make this decision was being able to trust myself and trust that I could cope and make a good life.  That's what I want for all women - no matter what path they choose.  


Sunday, 18 November 2018

Fear: How does fear prevent us knowing if we want children or not

My appearance on Woman's Hour happened last week and you can listen to the whole show here BBC Woman's Hour Broadcast  Thanks to everyone who emailed me with warm words after the broadcast - it was much appreciated!

I've only been on the radio several times over the years and each time, I've been racked with nerves.  The day before appearing on Women's Hour,  I was filled with FEAR.  I was convinced that I would freeze on air, that I would stumble or make completely no sense what-so-ever.    I was in a state of panic.   I also kept thinking How could I get out of this?  This was very strange as I had yearned and yearned to be able to be on the radio and to get the message out about the struggle that so many women go through in trying to decide whether to have children or not.

So why was I so fearful? Why did I now want to push away something I thought I wanted?   The coach part of me knew that my saboteur (or inner critic) was in complete control - he was hissing that I wasn't worthy and that I was too fluffy, too liable to waffle and talk around a subject for AGES to be able to be a slick and effective radio presenting

One of my coach friends, the fab Meg Lyons offered me a coaching session after I reached out to her. We went through different scenarios which did help calm my nerves a little.  But she mentioned something that had a powerful effect on me which was:

'Anytime we do something outside our comfort zone, anytime we stretch ourselves or try something new, we feel fear... that's a natural response.  The key is to acknowledge it, accept it and then do what we need to do in order to grow and stretch'

Just that knowing that fear is a natural part of this process of doing something outside my normal comfort zone made that fear less powerful. 

And I realised that this is a parallel process to what all of my baby decision clients go through.  One of the reasons that this decision can be so scary and fearful is that it requires us to go outside our comfort zone.   Even if women make the positive decision (as so beautifully described by Dr Ginette Carpenter on the Women's Hour show) not to have children, it's still a decision that is asking us to stretch ourselves.  Why? Because, in this instance, it is asking us to shut the door on a potential future opportunity.  My clients who are considering a child free life say that they are often worried that they are making the wrong choice, that if they decide not to have children that they will be missing out on an experience that they can never have otherwise.  In this age where FOMO (fear of missing out) is becoming a recognised syndrome and cause of unhappiness, it's not comfortable to say that we are going to say no, that we are going to shut a door on a possibilities.  So many times women in their late 30's or early 40's have said that if they were a decade later, they would happily defer the decision because they would like to keep all their options open.

And that's why that for many people this really is a decision they have to make.  On the Women's Hour programme, Jane Garvey said she didn't understand how this really was a decision. For her, it was either something you did or you didn't... not a conscience decision.  I think this is because for Jane and many women who knew they always wanted children,  this was always an implicit assumption that they made personally and that was reinforced by societal norms that meant that they didn't need to think about.   However, to go against the grain, to question this implicit assumption is uncomfortable.  It is pushing against a comfort zone... which can lead to women who are thinking about embracing a child-free life to feel fear.

On the other side, if a woman is considering having children when they already have a good and comfortable life, the fear that we might be taking something on that would disrupt that and that our saboteur says, we might not be cut out for, that we have no experience of,  really forces out outside our comfort zone.  It is a decision that can stretch us and we can, like I explained did with the radio interview, search for many reasons why this decision is not for us.  Even if we have a strong desire to have children, our fear of moving outside what we know can be immense.

That's why, as I said on the Women's Hour show, one of the things I do with all my clients is to get out all their fears.  We need to shine a light on our fears in order to deal with them.  Are they fears led by the saboteur because we are frightened of stepping outside our comfort zone?   Once we bring these fears out, we can grapple with them and we can look at how likely these fear are to occur.  Sometimes I find that just acknowledging a clients fear as normal can take the  power away.

A fear that comes up again and again is that women feel like they might not be the best mother, that they don't feel like they are cut to be a mother or that they don't feel like a natural mother.   It can help just to hear someone say that many of us who are mothers feel like that, many of us feel inadequate and not like the mystical natural mothers we've all heard about.   We can still go forward and be mothers and have ambivalence.  That's normal.  That's what being human is all about.  The myth of the natural mother is not one that is born out in reality.  And in fact, it's when we try to life up to unrealistic myths around womanhood or motherhood is when we fall down - because we can never achieve this, we are being set up to fail.

What I want for all women is that they feel that whatever choice that they make is a positive decision.  Yes, fear is a part of the decision making process.  But fear shouldn't be the reason we make the choice to be either child free or a mother.  We need to trust ourselves to make a positive decision and find ways to acknowledge but then vanquish the voices of fear.

Monday, 5 November 2018

Why I coach women who don't know if they want to be a mother or not

I'm a big fan of the BBC Radio 4 programme Woman's Hour and have been a listener for over 20 years.  In 2018,  I was invited on the show which was hosted by Jenni Murray and this felt like the pinnacle of my career.  (you can listen to that show here Beth Follini & Christina Odone on Women's Hour ).  I've now been invited on again when I will be discussing how women can and do make this decision and to talk about my own personal journey.

Many people have asked me what led me to coach on this specific and very niche issue.  Over the years, I've had comments from people who are very perplexed by what I do.  Usually, they have never felt stuck on the issue - they have always known that they either want children OR don't want children that they can't understand why someone would go to a coach, a stranger for help on this issue.  'If you don't know if you want a baby or not, then you definitely shouldn't have one.' is a comment I've heard several times.

But I know exactly what it is like to feel stuck in the land of indecision around whether to forge ahead and have children (or attempt to have children) or to carry on and live a child free life.

For me, my decision was complicated by the fact that I disagreed with my partner about having kids.  As he already had a grown up child from a previous relationship and was already of an age when he thought he had put all that behind him, it wasn't ideal for him to embark on the journey of having another child.

I bounced back and forth between the options for a couple years  not sure what to do.  I looked for some advice or guidance but didn't find a whole lot out there to help me.

Finally, I felt that my desire for a child outweighed many of the logical and practical reasons against. My partner came on board with the idea and we now have a 13 year old son.

At the same time, I also know that I would have had good and fulfilled life without children - it would have just been a different life.

When I started my training, I realised that coaching would be a great way to help other people who were in the same situation I had been.  Coaching helps people 'get out of their own way'.  It allows us to look at decisions and life choices in different ways than we have been.  I get people to visualise the different parts of them that are in conflict.  A classic tension is between the 'head (logic, reason) and the 'heart'.  So I encourage people to shut their eyes and visualise these two parts.  What does your head have to say? And what about your heart? What would it like to do.

I also get people to write out all their fears on a mind map - their fears and anxieties about having and not having children  And then we look at them  in the 'cold light of day' and find ways we can respond to those fears.  If they are afraid they might be lonely when they get older if they don't have children, we brainstorm things they can do that will help overcome loneliness as they age.  How do they feel about choosing not to have children when they feel more confident that they have other options to deal with potential loneliness.   If they have a fear that they might not be a good parent, I ask them to examine the veracity of that fear - is that just a belief of their inner critic or saboteur?  What happens if they imagine showing the inner critic the door... what do they believe when the inner critic isn't able to speak and wield so much power?    When clients do this, they often feel clearer about their decision and less clouded by fear.

Having coached on the issue for over 10 years now I can honestly say it is still incredibly rewarding.  Particularly when I hear from clients who have been able to move on and feel at peace with whatever decision they have made, whether it be to be child free or to have children.   I feel so privileged to have been able to have been able to walk alongside them on their journey.




Friday, 26 October 2018

Flipping a coin: Leaving the baby decision up to fate?

The subtitle of my book 'Baby or Not' is 'Making the Biggest Decision of Your Life'.   And it is probably the biggest decision you'll ever make.

So how could I even suggest that flipping a coin be a way to make the baby decision? Particularly when I've seen hundreds of people of the year to help them through the decision making process?!?!

This column by the Guardian columnist Oliver Burkman  Find it hard to make a big decision? Don’t overthink it really resonated with me.  Much of what I do in coaching is helping people 'get out of their own way'.    Most people who come to coaching for the baby decision, have been thinking and analysing this decision to the point where they feel completely overwhelmed.   They've been relying on their head/brain to lead the decision.  There is a belief that the answer to any problem will come if we think hard enough about it, if we analyse enough the answer will become clear.

'Hence the paradox: we fret and stew, as if hoping through sheer effort to see into the future. In the worst case, we end up choosing none of the potentially good options, but a definitively bad one – paralysis – instead. That is the fate of “Buridan’s ass”, the hypothetical donkey, positioned equidistantly between hay and water, that is hungry and thirsty in equal measure and stays rooted to the spot, thus starving to death.'

Most of my coaching clients come with that horrible feeling of paralysis.  Paralysis can be a great way to avoid making a decision.  As long as we are in that limbo state, we don't have to make a decision that has the potential to be so life changing.  And, as Burkman points out, it's agonising the constant fretting and worrying about what possible disasters will await us if we make the wrong choice.  I hear it again and again that people feel the weight of making a bad decision - and if only they could see into the future, the could decide.

So Burkman's suggestion that we flip a coin to make these important decision comes from the acknowledgement that many decision we make can't be made with logic alone.   As a coach, my role is to help people find enough trust, in their intuition AND most importantly in their ability to deal with whatever the future holds, whatever road their decision take them on.   In order to get out of the 'flip-flopping' between the option of becoming a parent and staying child free and making that 'sudden, intuitive, semi-random choice' that Burkman points out is a crucial part of the decision making process, many people need support along the way to find ways to quiet their saboteur and listen to their intuition which often has had the answer for us all along.




Tuesday, 16 October 2018

When everyone seems to be having babies.... except you

A few months ago, I wrote this blog post on intrusive press speculation about when Meghan Markle and Prince Harry would be having children.  And today it was announced that the couple were now expecting their first child!

While we all want to be happy for any couple who are having a baby announcements from friends and celebrities who are having children can trigger conflicted feelings because it can seem as thought everyone in the world is having babies .... except you.

As Meghan is 37, it has been suggested that it has been relatively easy for her to get pregnant.  In this article How easy is it get pregnant at 37 like Meghan Markle?   the writer suggests that we need to put an end to scaremongering about women's fertility at later ages.

Professor Geeta Nargund, founder of specialist fertility clinic Create Fertility, says women wanting children do need to be aware of the impacts of ageing, but echoes that this shouldn’t cause panic. 

“Fertility rates decline with age. Women under 30 have a higher chance of conceiving per cycle,” she tells HuffPost UK. “Fertility rates decline sharply after the age of 35; however women in their mid to late thirties conceive naturally if they are ovulating regularly, have no known cause of sub-fertility and have maintained a healthy lifestyle when there is no male factor problem. Men’s age also has an impact on their fertility.”

Many of my clients are in their mid to late 30's and I very much agree that we shouldn't scaremonger women into believing that the situation is hopeless.  I have clients who ultimately decided to have children and went on to have children in their late 30's

 However, I've also worked with clients who have struggled with their fertility.   If you have been trying to conceive, it can feel painful when we see celebrities getting pregnant after 35.  Many celebrities many have had access to fertility treatment which will of course not be publicised and which can create a false view of how easy it has been for them to get get pregnant.

Meghan and Harry have also been quoted as saying they are happy to have 'joined the club'.   If you don't have children but want children if you are trying to conceive but are struggling or if you are trying to decide whether to have kids,  the concept of parenthood being an exclusive club that you can't join can feel hurtful.

If you are feeling this way, there are things you can do to help shift your mood and perspective:

  • Remind yourself of the many ways you do belong - what communities, groups and causes are you are part of now.   
  • Have a walk, spend time in nature or do a physical activity that you enjoy.  This will help change your mood and help you be mindful of what is happening in the moment now.
  • Start to keep an appreciation journal.  Note 3 things you have appreciated about your day.  It could be the blue sky, receiving kind words for a friend or for a lovely meal




Wednesday, 10 October 2018

Having it all: Is it possible to have children and a high powered career if you are a woman?

In the year 2018,  many of us would have thought that the question of whether a woman could have a family and a career would have been sorted.  In the 1980's, the idea of being able to 'have it all' was highly promoted.

Mothers face disproportionately more difficulty in the workplace than fathers.  Many women who are trying to make the decision whether to have children or not are very aware of the struggles faced by mothers in the workplace.    For women who are in high commitment or high achieving careers which can be all consuming, the idea of adding to that the all consuming nature of having children can be  inconceivable.

A former client who reads my blog sent me a link to this article  Can women really have a career and a family? written by Cosmopolitan magazine editor Farrah Storr.  It's a personal story of how she felt she had to make a choice between a high flying career and having a family.   The irony of her situation was the Cosmopolitan promoted the idea of women being able to 'have it all but when she was offered the position, she felt that she had to close the door on motherhood.

I took the job. It was relentless. In the beginning, at least. The hours were long. The team, quite understandably, suspicious. On my first day, I got word that one of the longest-serving members of the team had resigned. (In protest? I wasn’t sure.) Three months later, almost 80 per cent of the team had followed suit. And so, with just six remaining members of staff I knuckled down, worked longer and harder than I had ever done in my entire career and tried to think: what did young women want today?  I never made the IVF appointment. Instead, I simply went home one evening and nervously addressed my husband. “I’m not sure I want this enough to risk everything else we have,” I said.

He looked at me, touched my hand and said simply, “I’m so glad you said that. Neither do I.”

And so, as I headed into my 37th year, we finally closed the window, pulled down the blinds and laid to rest any notions about a family and thus “having it all”. I could, I decided, be OK with having it all-ish.

For Farrah, there was a sense of acceptance that came with her decision which came with the realization it is OK to let go of the dream of 'having it all'.

It is possible for all women to combine a high flying career and having children and I work with clients to look at how they might make this work.  An important part of this is exploring how they can ensure male partners can be engaged to support them if they decide to go down the route of having children.  The role of men in this question is often not explored and it's something that I hope to address in an upcoming blog post.

Finally, we need to look at what it means to 'have it all.'   Is having it all merely a tick box list of things that we want to have or achieve?  Maybe we need to re-define the term to mean having all the love, acceptance and compassion for ourselves and others around us... a state of being rather than a prescribe list of things that we must have.



Monday, 24 September 2018

Sometimes we need to let go of a dream - What I've learnt in 10 years of Maybe Baby coaching (Lesson 4)

Coaching is often advertised as the way to get the life your dreamed of.  We coaches talk about the power of dreams and of overcoming our inner saboteurs in order to make our dreams a reality. So it feels like it's paradoxical for me as a coach to be talking about letting go of a dream as the way to move forward. Huh?

Sometimes it's the dreams we've held for a long time that are actually holding us back, keeping us stuck.  I realized this early on when I was coaching a client who said that all her life she had dreamed of having children within a wonderful relationship.  For various reasons, she wasn't in a relationship and now, in her late 30's she was feeling despondent and felt like a failure.    She couldn't even contemplate her options which included having children on her own because they didn't fit in with her dream.

As we worked together, we explored ways she could let go of the dream.  It wasn't her fault, it wasn't that she was 'wrong' or flawed.  Life just hadn't worked out as she expected.  In order to move forward, she needed to let go of this dream.

The first stage of letting go involves mourning.  It's important to acknowledge the range of emotions that go alongside the death of a dream.  Sometimes this is about expressing anger at the sheer unfairness of life, sometimes it's about sadness.

But then there is the release.  If you imagined your dream was sailing away from you - like a sailboat - what are your releasing?  What are you allowing yourself to embrace?  What possibilities are now open to you?

For clients who go through this process there is a sense of release and acceptance.  This can allow people to go on and explore other options.  Perhaps it's having a child on their own as a single parent or perhaps it's a child-free life?  Possibilities such as fostering don't seem like poor shadows of the dream anymore but rich and exciting options.  When we let go of a dream that is causing us stuckness and pain, we open up to new energy and new possibilities.

Friday, 14 September 2018

Our saboteur makes us doubt ourselves - What I've learnt in 10 Year of Maybe Baby Coaching (Lesson 3)

In my 10 years of coaching, I've learnt many valuable lessons about making the decision to have children or not.  In this anniversary year, I'm sharing 10 lessons with all my readers. Today I'd like to explore lesson 3 in this series which is  'Our Saboteur makes us doubt ourselves'.

We all have one.  A saboteur, lurking in the shadows.

When I first introduce the idea of the saboteur, I explain to clients that the saboteur is that part of them that is sabotaging themselves in some way.  Perhaps through negative thinking or perspectives.  Or maybe the saboteur appears in a pattern of behaviour. For example,  I sometimes work with baby decision clients who have a Perfectionist Sabateur who says 'you can't possibly be a mother like YOUR mother/friend/sister is.'  A perfectionist saboteur stops us taking risks and trying new things because it can invoke a huge fear of faiture.  Or I might work with a client who has a saboteur that is very judgemental, that says 'you can't be childfree because all real women have children.'

What I suggest to all my clients is that we try to bring their saboteur to life so we can 'shine a light' on it, challenge it and ulimately, see that this saboteur is not them.  It's a part of you but it's not a life enchancing or helpful part.

What does a saboteur look like?   The different forms that my clients saboteurs have taken include:

- A small blue ball called 'The Blue Meanie' that sits on the client's shoulder, whispering mean things in his ear.

- A tall, witch clad only in black - it says little but fills the client with shame and dread.

- A jumping little demon that says to the client 'Oh go on, have some fun, don't worry about that werid thing called committment, you need to ENJOY life!'

- A dark, dark cloud that hangs over the client and it has a paralysing effect - she feels stuck and like she can never get anything done.

Once we identify the saboteur and how it has been influencing my client and their decision, we explore ways to reduce it's power.  Often, it can be as simple as noticing the saboteur and telling it go away.  A visual image can help - imagine you show it to the door.  Once it's out of the way, we relook at the baby decision - once the saboteur is out of the way, does the decision to have children or be childfree look any different?

Often it does and I encourage clients to continue to bring their saboteur to life and then move it out of the way.





Sunday, 2 September 2018

Sacred to be a parent?

I've had a great break from work for much of August and, as you can see, I haven't written much on my blog this summer.  Instead of focusing on my coaching work,  I've hugely enjoyed visiting friends and family in Canada, Maine and also in the North East of England.  And now, it's September - and I like, many of you have that back-to-school feeling, feeling raring to go!

As I was starting to gear up towards the end of my holiday last week,  I was more than extremely pleased to an article Sacred to be a parent? in the New York Times a few days ago! It featured the wonderful Ann Davidman and Denise L. Carlini,  who, like me, specialise in working with women who are making the decision to be mothers or not.  At the beginning of the year, I reviewed their wonderful book The Motherhood Decision and I've had discussions with Denise when she has visited London over the years.

Ann and Denise are indeed pioneers in the work having started exploring and working with women over 27 years ago.   When I started Ticktock Coaching over 10 years ago, I didn't actually know what Ann and Denise were doing and it was in the last few years that I became aware of their work.  Mainly I think the development of on line tools and communication has increased our knowledge of the other people working in the field.  It's also given people more sense of the support they can get and also, that other people are experiencing similar ambivalence and worries.

A statement that resonates so much with me is this one that Ann makes in the article.

'While society has come a long way in accepting those who are child free, those who counsel these undecideds say there is a tremendous amount of shame people feel for not knowing. “Society doesn’t like ambivalence,” Ms. Davidman said.'

I think this is very true.  Women who come to me often come to coaching on the baby decision feeling embarrassed they they still don't know what they want. Many times they report that they have been scolded for not being able to decide.  One of the most powerful things that coaching,  counselling or other forms of support women will turn to in to help them make the decision is the release of shame and embarrassment. 

If you've spent this vacation period or holiday time holding on to those feelings, maybe it's time to find some support - use the September back-to-school feeling to propel you to get in touch with someone like me, Ann, Denise or another practitioner (or book) that might reassure you that you are not alone and that you can make the decision!




Friday, 13 July 2018

Having a Baby on Your Own: An Excellent Choice

Being single is one of the main reasons women have children on their own.  Sometimes, as I explored in my last blog post, it is because you just haven't met your 'one and only'.  Often, clients come to me who have been (or who are) in relationships with men who don't want children.  It can be a painful process deciding to have a child on your own.  For many of my clients, there is a period of necessary mourning that people need to go through.   If you've always had a dream of having a child in a relationship, it can be painful to consider having a child on your own.   But more and more women are choosing to have a child on their own as a single parent.  And for many women, this is a positive choice.

Today, I'd like to look at an article written by Emma Brockes called 'Going it alone: Why I chose Single Motherhood' This is an extract from her recent book:  An Excellent Choice

It's a fascinating story which I think illustrates many of the dilemmas for women who are thinking of having children.  Her story holds both universal truths that will resonate for many women with the unique and specific situation she found herself in.

Unlike many women in this situation, Emma did have a partner, a woman who had decided to have a child on her own.  Says Emma:

'She was three years older than me and told me from the outset that, in the near future, she was planning on trying to get pregnant. Logistically, this made sense; it would be madness to forestall while we flapped about for another two years trying to decide what we were doing. Emotionally, however, it stumped me. According to every relationship model I knew, you could either be with someone who’d had kids before you met, have kids together and separate down the line, or split up and have a baby alone. There was no such thing as being with someone who had a baby on her own. It sounded like a terrible deal: all the stress and anxiety without the substance of motherhood.'

Her partner went ahead and had a baby.  And Emma, was still in a relationship with her and, of course, was close to her child... but was not in the role of mother.  As she explains in the article, 

'I also didn’t want to “help” another woman raise her baby. Unless I was Mother Teresa (I’m not), the only way it would make sense for me to stick around in the event of L having a child was if our relationship became a more conventional union, or if I had my own baby independently, too.'

Emma describes the long and difficult process of IVF which in the end is a success and she has twin girls. Her partner has a son and ultimately, they start to look at a solution to how they can maintain their independent family lives but support each other and their children.  I love the solution that they come to at the end of the article!




Wednesday, 4 July 2018

What if you haven't met your one and only?

Some of my clients come to see me for coaching because they would really like children but they are not in a relationship.  For these clients, the dilemma is whether they want to have children on their own, as a single parent.

Despite the belief in our society that 'there is someone for everyone', many people have not found their 'one and only'.  This article recently published in the Washington Post called Some People Never Find Their One and Only  explored this topic which is not often looked at.

'Just 51 percent of the adult population is married, down from 72 percent in 1960. So we talk about swinging, “Sex and the City” singles and extended adolescences. We talk about the delay of marriage or the rise of cohabitation and single motherhood. Depending on our perspective, we cheer the broadening definitions of family or bemoan the breakdown of the nuclear unit.

But the cousin or neighbour or co-worker who always seems to be on his or her own? We don’t give them much thought.

It’s easier not to. Perhaps as much as religion, our society hinges on belief in romantic love. How many songs and novels revolve around the long search and eventual discovery of a beloved? The phrase “happily ever after” implies a singular outcome: two lives made ever better by virtue of their union.'

As the article explores, although many of the people interviewed, would have ideally wanted a partner, many find their lives enjoyable - not the usual stereotype of the lonely 'old maid'.

For single people I coach who are looking at whether they do want to have children on their own, it can be important for us to do some work on 'letting go' or mourning of the dream of having a child in a relationship.   This isn't to say the client will never have a relationship! But if someone wants to move forward and have a child as a single parent,  one thing that can hold people back is holding on to the anger and grief on 'how things should be'.

Journalist Emma Brockes has recently written a book about her decision to have a child on her own.
https://www.theguardian.com/lifeandstyle/2018/jun/23/going-it-alone-why-chose-single-motherhood and in my next blog post, I'm going to look at her story and explore how choosing single motherhood can work for many women.

Monday, 25 June 2018

Tracee Ellis - I'm tired of people asking me about whether I'm going to have children


What is one of the MOST annoying things that happens to women who haven't made the decision yet whether they are having children?   For many of my clients, it's those constant questions about when .. and whether .... you will be having children is one of the things that drives  them crazy.   It seems really strange.  Having children is one of the most personal and important decisions someone can make.  So why do near strangers, work colleagues and acquaintances feel empowered to ask this question?

This was reflected in a recent interview with Tracee Ellis, the start of the amazing US show 'Blackish'.   (Note: I LOVE this show by the way - it is shown sometimes here in the UK television but doesn't have a regular, mainstream slot so I pick it up on Amazon Prime.  It's focused on a Black middle class family in the US and it's is funny AND packs a a powerful political message in every episode.)

As reported in this article Black-ish’ Star Tracee Ellis Ross Sets the Record Straight on Her Decision Not to Have Children (Yet)

"Well, I will say two things. I have not made a final decision that I am not having children. It is a personal choice that I will make when I’m comfortable, and it’s not a conversation that I have with people. I also want to be clear that my choices around being a mother have nothing to do with my career, they are not connected." 

I have a theory that people feel comfortable asking women about this personal choice because we still see women's choices around fertility and pro-creation as being in the public realm.  It's still viewed as a decision that everyone can comment upon!  And it doesn't stop when you have made the decision.  If you decide to have children, then you will find people commenting on your pregnancy (what you should or shouldn't eat or drink for instance or finding complete strangers commenting on your 'Baby Bump').  And often, people who have decided not to have children will find people asking why or making comments on their choice.   In a post I wrote last year, I give some helpful hints on how to deal with intrusive questions in this blog post  on Surviving Intrusive Questions 

And if you need a snappy retort to someone who is speculating on your fertility status, you can always refer to the great Eleanor Roosevelt once said 'Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people.'