Motherhood terrifies me

The whole idea of motherhood can seem overwhelming to many of us  - and very scary.   Some of these fears are based on our inner critic or saboteur voices.  The saboteur is the part of is that is negative, fearful and doesn't want change.  This part of us can hold fearful beliefs that, when we examine them in the light, turn out to be false.

Other fears are based on our knowledge of structural inequalities or challenges. When we look at the working women we know in our lives and all the problems and discrimination faced by these we know, it can seem like it might be totally impossible to be a mother and have a life as well.

Many people express a fear that they might feel regret if they have children - regret at options or futures that may never happen if they have children.  

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